pre-Christmas thoughts

I'm a tail-end baby boomer, hating that label and fearing for what it means for my future if I should live to be old. The generation after mine already has children and some of them are older than my own. I have had a fish-out-of-water feeling on and off for many years and suddenly it's worse than ever. Why is that, I wonder. This will be my fourteenth Christmas in America as the only Brit in a family of five. The other four are my husband and children, all of whom were born here in the US of A.

First point of note. I miss my past, have trouble enjoying my present and don't see much in my future.