A Wet October Wednesday

My life has changed. It's been gradual, but it's been changing over the past year from the way it was for the five or so years before that. I'm coming to the realisation that I've entered another phase of my life. The change hasn't been drastic or dramatic and no-one outside my own head (or you who read my blog) will even have noticed, but it has happened nonetheless. My life has changed because I find I am spending more time alone than I was a year or so ago - not through my own fault, but through changed circumstances. My self-confidence has taken a blow so I find it harder to talk to people and that in turn leaves me at a loss as to where to go next.

The greatest enemy to a bright future is to mourn the past and so while I might learn from my mistakes, I cannot allow myself to say "life was better when...", so I won't. My life is good right now and I'm not going to worry about whether or not it will be good next week or next year; I'm just going to make the most of now. Right now I have a comfortable home, time and resources to pursue my interests, I have family, friends and pets to love and I have reasonably good health. How dare I wish for more than that?

Right now I am in need of a friend to go out with for a day.