My life has changed. It's been gradual, but it's been changing over the past year from the way it was for the five or so years before that. I'm coming to the realisation that I've entered another phase of my life. The change hasn't been drastic or dramatic and no-one outside my own head (or you who read my blog) will even have noticed, but it has happened nonetheless. My life has changed because I find I am spending more time alone than I was a year or so ago - not through my own fault, but through changed circumstances. My self-confidence has taken a blow so I find it harder to talk to people and that in turn leaves me at a loss as to where to go next.
The greatest enemy to a bright future is to mourn the past and so while I might learn from my mistakes, I cannot allow myself to say "life was better when...", so I won't. My life is good right now and I'm not going to worry about whether or not it will be good next week or next year; I'm just going to make the most of now. Right now I have a comfortable home, time and resources to pursue my interests, I have family, friends and pets to love and I have reasonably good health. How dare I wish for more than that?
Right now I am in need of a friend to go out with for a day.
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I wish I wasn't so far away! I'd take you.
ReplyDeleteIts a tough time when the kids are at that, here but not here stage. There are days as you know when the lonliness overwhelms me as you know but I battle on and thank my lucky stars my life has been very good, so I shouldn't complain.
ReplyDeleteAre you not working anymore? Some days I wished I worked but then others when everyone in the world (my family) needs me to do things, I think when do I have time to work!
I am still working a couple of days a week - but I'm mostly alone at work too. Thank you for your comments - I spent the afternoon working on my hanging (a bit of fabric art), and watching British television programmes on Hulu. A good way to spend a rainy day!
ReplyDeleteYou can always come visit me :)
ReplyDeleteSending you a (HUG)
Seems we're always adjusting to new phases in our lives - some gradual and some abrupt - hang in there and enjoy the ride!
Oh Jan, I'm in the same place. A lot of the time its okay but some days I just crave the company of a friend.
ReplyDeleteMaybe we should try to get together? I'm always nervous of driving to you that busy last bit of highway near you freaks me out and of course these days its tricky with munchkins in tow, but we should try.