It seems to me that whatever I do, I am led to a place where I can only weep. I finished my job a week ago and have had a fairly satisfactory week of catching up with chores around the house. But I am lost when it comes to using my leisure time. What I need is something absorbing to occupy my mind and keep me away from my emotions.
Today I decided to finally finish a scrapbook which I started in 2001 but abandoned a year or so later. I found scrapbooking too time-consuming although at the time I enjoyed doing it. So I decided that I could finally finish it and put it away for good but instead I found myself looking for photos which were missing which I thought would be easy since they are only a few years old and the kids are still here but I realised that I have become so fat and old and unattractive that I can't bear to look at myself as I was seven years ago. It's SO frustrating to be so stupidly affected by everything.
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- semidetachedbrit
- I live with my husband, son, two daughters, a dog, and a cat in a nice house in a nice neighbourhood in New England. It's hard to define exactly who I am. Sometimes I'm a leader but usually I'm a follower. I like to be different but I'm not a trendsetter. I want to be liked. I admire people who are witty, clever, intelligent, creative, resourceful, efficient, kind, diplomatic, articulate, fair and thoughtful. I try to be all those things. This blog is me. I don't name names (to protect the innocent) and I don't always share the things that affect me the most but I am honest and what I write is the truth.
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