So yesterday I decided that I needed to take myself in hand once again and put myself back on the straight and narrow path leading to freedom from fat. Oh yes. Over many years of being overweight, losing it, gaining it back and worse, I've made some observations about myself.
- That without fail, if I lose weight and regain it, I will always end up heavier than when I started.
- Carbohydrates are easy to grab, easy to eat, are not as filling as they ought to be and leave me wanting more. Carbohydrates are not my friends.
- Weighing and measuring food is tedious and leads me to become frustrated that it takes so long because I am hungry.
- Having to watch what I eat means I have to remember that I am watching what I eat which in turn means I have to think about food more and in the end makes me want to eat!
I'm past caring about people who can eat and never gain weight, or those who are too successful in their weight loss to be human. I'm also past wondering why I was born to be fat and how life isn't fair because there are worse things than being prone to obesity and all those are things that brought me down when I was younger. Right now, this minute, I am only interested in eating better for health.
At 52 I'm not aiming for the swimsuit show, the fashion show or any other kind of show; I'm aiming to keep my arteries open, my heart pumping and my knees from hurting. At my age, when I lose weight, I gain wrinkles. THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR NOT KEEPING THE WEIGHT DOWN WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG, PEOPLE!! I fear that my youthful looks will disappear and I'll start looking like a hag.
Hmm... Well the best I can hope for is good health and who cares what the hell I look like as long as I'm clean, tidy and well-dressed. I'm also practicing my smile. Seriously. When life was getting me down a few years ago I decided there was no use going around looking as miserable as I felt because no-one would want to talk to me, so I put on a permanent little smile, hoping that I was showing a pleasant face. I have no idea whether it worked or if I just scared people off looking half-demented, but in the end, the effort of keeping that little smile on my face paid off, because life didn't seem nearly so bad, and stretching that smile when greeting a friend was no effort at all. So recently I've been doing it again.
The early months of this year (excluding the highlight of my trip to England) were very difficult for me emotionally. I can't go into details here, but I was a complete emotional wreck with my self-esteem at an all-time low. Over the summer I've gradually been coming to and getting back to feeling like my old self again. The smiling exercise is helping, and hopefully, getting back on track with more controlled eating will help me too.
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ReplyDeleteHi Jan! No comment on your message- You know I know. Enough said.
love ya
KC
Very good points, you're on the right track, picking yourself up and forging ahead. The smile method is very true, and very good for you. Just smile - it'll make you feel better, help with making friends, and others can just wonder what you're smiling about and that is fun too :D
ReplyDeleteI think you are awesome and one of my very best friends - you rock and don't you forget it!
(HUGS) and love,
Tammy
I am on the same path and I still go to Weight Watchers, not necessarily to lose weight but to try and hold the balance. At the moment, the weight gain has a hold and so I am back to the drawing board.
ReplyDeleteThe one thing that worries me is the genetics of the whole thing. My eldest daughter and my son have both taken after their Dad in their body makeup. However, my youngest takes after me, all the fat around the middle. This week, at the age of 20, she was told by her gynae that basically she has to lose weight and exercise as her cholesterol is far too high. I suppose its is good that she knows but I know how hard life is going to be in that respect. I had been telling her to eat more healthily but I am just MUM who for all her life has been battling the bulge. Hopefully, hearing it from the Doc will work but from experience (and many pills) I doubt it.